The very essence....

To catch the essence of life, do you have to try? Is it possible that you could desire that feeling of pure life flowing through your veins so strongly, and attempt to find that feeling, but pass up the feeling by trying to hard? Maybe I'm being foolish. I have indeed had the pleasure of feeling pure life flow through my body, through my emotions. But here in this small, ridiculous, narrow-minded town, it's almost impossible. As hard as I try. I long to garden, to dress, to speak, and to do whatever crazy things my heart desires. I want to come up with new ideas. I don't know if I'm just being lazy, or if this town is really constraining my mind from flowing to it's full capacity. Is it also possible to persevere through the hardest sufferings, and still enjoy that pure essence? I'm sure of this.... I just haven't experienced it yet. Ah well. I will learn in time. I guess I am a bit young.


I was looking at some photographs of this woman who I'm assuming lives in France... I do believe that she has captured in pixels the essence of this pure living that I'm hoping for in my heart.


http://www.flickr.com/photos/81951381@N00/

What a beautiful life she has. I want one like that, please.

I was speaking to a friend of mine yesterday, and I've decided that I want to live in Paris. And during that time I'd like to live in Rome for four months. And after Rome I want to spend time in Africa doing mission work. Getting these words out of my mouth to someone who isn't telling me that I'm crazy feels fantastic!
I've actually come up with multiple lovely ideas in my head that (yes others would think crazy and silly- in this town at least) I will carry out. I'm gonna learn how to speak French. I'm also gonna start shopping at thrift and vintage stores instead of target and urban outfitters so often. You know how much moolah that will save me?
Call me crazy, Ponchatoula, you'll love me one day.

Oh! And I found a new quote to live by in my dancing life.
''You should always do the kind of dancing which brings out your own rare qualities instead of trying to win praise by mere acrobatic tricks."-Pavel Gerdt

This was told to one of the most famous dancers of all times- Anna Pavlova- who was criticized because of certain characteristics of her body. Take that all you stuck up ballerinas. I hope you go very far with your mere acrobatic tricks.


Gentle impulsion
Shakes me makes me lighter
Fearless on my breath.
-Teardrop, Massive Attack